Before I truly dedicate myself to Art, and because I've hit bit of a brick wall and can't seem to produce any good drawings at my desk tonight, I have to reevaluate my thoughts on what this medium means to me, and what would I even like to do with it if I ever truly became professional. I know people have said in the past that I can draw anything, and that I am "good" or that they're even jealous of my ability, and I appreciate the sentiment, but the ability I have is merely at a stage of potential, and has never grown as much as I'd like. I am by no means a master, and have trouble with several things such as architecture or body parts, color or capturing my ideas as vividly as I see them in my head.
I also have several bad social habits, and other problems that are just out of my hands until I can get a reliable vehicle in order to go somewhere quiet and as often as I'd like to in or order to focus. I don't do well with others around me, especially noisy folk, friends or family. I also know the dedication and sacrifices I would have to make to get to a point I'd I want to be, and I'm not the most organized person so I definitely would have to cut out a lot of filler in my life, but now I'm getting a bit off topic and on another subject entirely, so I'd like to get back to the point.
What does Art mean to me, personally?
Many people have their own ideas on art or even what an artist is. Is it someone who paints? Is it someone who tells a story? Is it a product of hard work, or is it something that allows us to express something we feel? How deeply does it have to penetrate our emotions before it can be put on display in a museum for all the world to see? Does that emotion have to be sad, or can it just be kind of silly? What of language, I mean doesn't that express the culture as definitively as any old canvas?
Those are questions I've thought about since grade school, but in time I came to realize that it is every one of those things, despite whatever pretentious film critic will tell you. Art means the world to me, and so I have to make a few decisions, and I have to get into a strict routine of practice to do justice to my feelings toward it.
So that's why I created this page. It's a tool to help direct me, and figure out what I need to do, and so....
"The bard sings his woes, an architect plans ever so carefully, and the painter captures events set into motion, while the musician orchestrates a perfected union. All this is nothing more than a masterstroke. Somewhere, all of mankind's creation (be it virtual or physical, passed on or discovered) touches someone somewhere in a way that can brings tears of joy or sadness, kindness or even love."